MiSsaLmaH

nice

2011-11-11T22:19:00.000-08:00

i'll soon be someone u used to know....

2011-04-22T09:02:00.000-07:00

It was helpless anyway

There's nothing much we could do or say

Darling don't you think it's a shame?

that it had to end this way

So here's to say goodbye,
our love is lost, and we cant figure why
maybe it really is about time
that we finally made up our minds

So Darling, here's to you
i hope that when you find someone new
that she would always be true to you
to love and understand you

Soon you'll build new memories
then slowly you'd forget about me
then i would slowly be
a distant memory

*Soon i'll just be
that someone you used to know
But darling you will thank me
for letting you go
time is not for wasting
i hope you'll find your intended
But i'm sorry
that your intended isn't me

it's not an easy thing
to shake off our history
i know that's what you want from me
but they will always stay with me

i admit i made mistakes
but darling with you it's just the same
if we stay there will be more to make
i dont know how much more we can take

Darling, it would be unfair
to stay with something no longer there
its not that i no longer care
i'd feel like a burden you cannot bear

life: recently

2011-04-15T21:54:00.001-07:00

a lot have happened recently and these are among the prominent events that give colours to my life....

qosh's birthday celebration

my kazen's engagement (Linda, da one in the middle)

SIFE UiTM Conference(BBQ nite)

2011-03-31T05:35:00.000-07:00

oh my...

2011-03-28T20:18:00.000-07:00

i so want this dress

it is just a song

2011-02-28T09:08:00.000-08:00

a song that speaks my heart.....

yemeni pashmina

2011-02-24T17:18:00.001-08:00

my new yemeni pashmina!! heart it

it is actually sold by http://www.facebook.com/profile.php?id=693770615

ask him if theres still stock

this is what we call : seronok!!

2011-02-10T23:26:00.000-08:00

something

2011-02-10T23:07:00.001-08:00

I’m not the best person to fall in love with. I get jealous easily, I have a lot of insecurities, I overanalyze, I push you to the edge, I get hurt when I’m not supposed to, I always put up unecessary fights.. But regardless of that, you have to know you still have reasons to hold on. You must know that you are cherished, treasured, and always thought of every minute of everyday. That you are the most important person to someone who may not be that special, but you thought otherwise. I may not be the best, but I will make up for it by loving you more than anyone can and ever will. Thank you for staying.

taken from : http://aveilofmodesty.tumblr.com

i wish..............

2011-02-10T06:36:00.000-08:00

a beautiful story

2011-01-09T19:55:00.000-08:00

i always dream that, one day when I'm married..i would want my husband to carry me out of bed every morning...to carry me up the stairs...n to carry me to bed when im asleep infront of the TV...hehehehe...(banyak berangan~)

as to connect to my day dream...i came across this story posted on MuslimStreetFashion and fall in love with it immediately...

enjoy!!!

When I got home that night as my wife served dinner, I held her hand and said, I've got something to tell you. She sat down and ate quietly. Again I observed the hurt in her eyes. Suddenly I didn't know how to say it. But I had to let her know what I was thinking. I want a divorce. I raised the topic calmly. She didn't seem to be annoyed by my words, instead she asked me softly, why? I avoided her question. This made her angry. She shouted at me, " you are not a man!"
That night, we didn't talk to each other. She was weeping. I knew she wanted to find out what had happened to our marriage. But I could hardly give her a satisfactory answer; I had lost my heart to a lovely girl called Dew. I didn't love her anymore. I just pitied her!
With a deep sense of guilt, I drafted a divorce agreement which stated that she could own our house, 30% shares of my company and the car. She glanced at it and then tore it to pieces. The woman who had spent ten years of her life with me had become a stranger. I felt sorry for her wasted time, resources and energy but I could not take back what I had said, for I loved Dew so dearly.
Finally she cried loudly in front of me, which was what I had expected to see. To me, her cry was actually a kind of release. The idea of divorce which had obsessed me for several weeks seemed to be firmer and clearer now.
The next day, I came back home very late and found her writing something at the table. I didn't have supper but went straight to sleep and fell fast asleep because I was tired after an eventful day with Dew. When I woke up, she was still there at the table writing. I just didn't care so I turned over and was asleep again.
In the morning she presented her divorce conditions: she didn't want anything from me, but needed a month's notice before the divorce. She requested that in that one month, we both struggle to live as normal a life as possible. Her reasons were simple: our son had his exams in a month's time and she didn't want to disrupt him with our broken marriage.
This was agreeable to me. But she had something more, she asked me to recall how I had carried her into our bridal room on our wedding day. She requested that everyday for the month's duration I carry her out of our bedroom to the front door every morning. I thought she was going crazy.
Just to make our last days together bearable I accepted her odd request. I told Dew about my wife's divorce conditions. She laughed loudly and thought it was absurd. No matter what tricks she has, she has to face the divorce, she said scornfully. My wife and I hadn't had any body contact since my divorce intention was explicitly expressed. So when I carried her out on the first day, we both appeared clumsy. Our son clapped behind us, daddy is holding mummy in his arms. His words brought me a sense of pain. From the bedroom to the sitting room, then to the door, I walked over ten meters with her in my arms. She closed her eyes and said softly, don't tell our son about the divorce. I nodded, feeling somewhat upset. I put her down outside the door. She went to wait for the bus to work. I drove alone to the office.
On the second day, both of us acted much more easily. She leaned on my chest.. I could smell the fragrance of her blouse. I realized that I hadn't looked at this woman carefully for a long time. I realized she was not young any more. There were fine wrinkles on her face, her hair was graying! Our marriage had taken its toll on her. For a minute I wondered what I had done to her.
On the fourth day, when I lifted her up, I felt a sense of intimacy returning. This was the woman who had given ten years of her life to me. On the fifth and sixth day, I realized that our sense of intimacy was growing again. I didn't tell Dew about this. It became easier to carry her as the month slipped by. Perhaps the everyday workout made me stronger.
She was choosing what to wear one morning. She tried on quite a few dresses but could not find a suitable one. Then she sighed, all my dresses have grown bigger. I suddenly realized that she had grown so thin, that was the reason why I could carry her more easily. Suddenly it hit me, .. she had buried so much pain and bitterness in her heart.
Subconsciously I reached out and touched her head. Our son came in at the moment and said, Dad, it's time to carry mum out. To him, seeing his father carrying his mother out had become an essential part of his life. My wife gestured to our son to come close and hugged him tightly. I turned my face away because I was afraid I might change my mind at this last minute. I then held her in my arms, walking from the bedroom, through the sitting room, to the hallway. Her hand surrounded my neck softly and naturally. I held her body tightly; it was just like our wedding day.
But her much lighter weight made me sad. On the last day, when I held her in my arms I could hardly move a step. Our son had gone to school. I held her tightly and said, I hadn't noticed that our life lacked intimacy. I drove to office... jumped out of the car swiftly without locking the door. I was afraid any delay would make me change my mind... I walked upstairs. Dew opened the door and I said to her, Sorry, Dew, I do not want the divorce anymore.
She looked at me, astonished. Then touched my forehead. Do you have a fever? She said. I moved her hand off my head. Sorry, Dew, I said, I won't divorce. My marriage life was boring probably because she and I didn't value the details of our lives, not because we didn't love each other any more. Now I realized that since I carried her into my home on our wedding day I am supposed to hold her until one of us departs this world.
Dew seemed to suddenly wake up. She gave me a loud slap and then slammed the door and burst into tears. I walked downstairs and drove away. At the floral shop on the way, I ordered a bouquet of flowers for my wife. The sales girl asked me what to write on the card. I smiled and wrote: I ll carry you out every morning until we are old.
The small details of our lives are what really matter in a relationship. It is not the mansion, the car, the property, the bank balance that matters. These create an environment conducive for happiness but cannot give happiness in themselves. So find time to be your spouse's friend and do those little things for each other that build a relationship.

what do u THINK?

2010-11-06T23:13:00.000-07:00

people dont like it when i ask alot of questions...i really dont noe u see...

2010-11-06T23:01:00.000-07:00

am so jaded

2010-11-06T22:53:00.000-07:00

2010-09-22T22:04:00.000-07:00

of knowledge and good deportment

2010-08-31T21:54:00.000-07:00

the words of the Prophet ﷺ related by al-Bukhari and Muslim, “Whoever seeks dignity, then Allah will dignify him, whoever seeks patience, then Allah will grant it to him and whoever seeks to enriched, then Allah will enrich him.” Ponder on this statement of the Prophet ﷺ for its blessings are infinite!

Imam Ibn al-Qayyim noted that good character is based on five important qualities:

Knowledge;
A willingness to change;
Patience;
Good nature;
Sound submission (islam).

(note that how important knowledge is..." iqra' " )

sife meeting...time is precious... use it wisely~ haha

2010-08-19T20:43:00.000-07:00

everybody else was sleeping....and i......hehehehe...credit to Moja's mac book

beauty~ :)

2010-08-15T20:57:00.000-07:00

the inspiration for my second raya outfit!

wish me luck to search for the almost-similar items....

i want to fly free....

2010-08-13T08:09:00.000-07:00

http://www.flickr.com/photos/hdpsp/2831169129/lightbox/

i just love sling bags

2010-07-31T20:24:00.000-07:00

i bought this one last two weeks....n am waiting for it

last nite i was browsing the net for another bag.....n i found this!!!

i want it so badly....

my dream abayah

2010-07-16T05:23:00.001-07:00

simply stunning!!

i just love turquoise!

love the cuff!!

i would love to have them all~~

am i an alien??

2010-07-02T01:55:00.000-07:00

School, students, teachers, text books, papers, lesson plans, headaches, questions...these are the entities that occupy my realm of living from now onwards. Nothing else revolves around me but of education setting and its vibe of excitement, tension, and overwhelming fatigue; the concoction of my 'daily juice'. I wake up every morning at 5.45 a.m. with nothing in my mind but the smiling faces of my students. they laugh at my sayings, gestures, my expressions...I am not sure if I’m being funny or they simply laugh at anything...but it’s warm though...their smiles and laughter signal that they are listening tentatively to my every words. The thought consoles me.

I’m very grateful to be given such students of good deportment. it’s one burden off my shoulder...unlike my relief classes, they are uncontrollable, I am always thinking of what is the best way to make them listen and at least stay still at their own place...I made it once for the from 3 students but the form 1 and 2....they are like so difficult...I really need to find solutions of handling problematic students especially those of young teenagers. Sometimes when I look at each of their faces, I can see that they are signaling something deep, an enigma of the plight that they are facing. I do not believe in 'bad' person. Nobody is bad for me...there’s reasons for their inconvenient behavior. Its either, they are having problems at home, their parents was not there for them and they feel neglected , or because of the negatives labels the teachers give them, that they themselves start to believe. Belief is just a perception and it’s not a fact, it is never true...it is only real if you believed it is. How can I make my students understand that....that they are more than what they believe...how?? If that can be done...then my problem is settled with them…It is so sad to see them that way….I wish I could help…but the question is HOW?

Worries aside. I had so so much fun at Hari Koperasi Sekolah yesterday…I helped my students to sell their products and it was a blast, their sales were something that can be proud of. They were elated at the profit they gained…thanked to me….sbb ckp “Lelong, Lelong….”hahahahah!!! It was humiliating at first…but I was thrilled all the way…thanks to my students and my friend , Moja for the support to jadi muke tembok kat situ…all the humiliation and weariness paid in the end though…I bought a pot of plant…yeah…my students sold plants!! Wasn’t that humungously interesting?? They have orchid, daisy and other weird I-don’t know-the–name plants….I did batik panting with my student; Sharifah salamah….hahaha…yeah…we have almost the same name. It came out beautiful….yeah…I can proudly claim that I’m now a batik painter…though not professional but mediocre is fair enough…that’s all…will be posting more of my practicum experience later…

it will soon come true....

2010-06-26T08:10:00.000-07:00

of passion and dream

supaya dikurniakan dan dipertemukan jodoh yg soleh /solehah

2010-06-25T01:00:00.000-07:00

salam

di sini ada beberapa tips yg antum semua dapat praktikkan dalam kehidupan kita seharian...moga kita semua mendapat jodoh yang baik dan beriman..insya Allah..amin..

1.Membaca surah Yaasin setiap malam sebab dalam satu hadist nabi bahawa surah Yaasin ada 10 keberkatan, satu darinya ialah sesiapa yang masih belum berjodoh maka akan diberi jodoh. Baca kalau boleh setiap malam, atau kerap, dan niatkan supaya Allah swt segerakan jodoh dan berikan yang baik dan beriman. Insyaallah mustajab.

2. Membaca surah Fatihah berulang-ulang kali, niatkan supaya Allah swt segerakan jodoh. Juga terdapat dalam sebuah hadist, yang mana surah fatihah ada beberapa keberkatan antaranya diberi jodoh, baca berulang-ulang contoh 1x atau 3, 5, 7 atau seberapa yang anda suka dan niatkan supaya Allah swt berikan jodoh yang baik dan soleh.

3. Melakukan sembahyang hajat selama 3 hari berturut-turut dengan penuh kusyuk dan pengharapan, dan lakukan juga amalan-amalan lain yang baik-baik, contoh sedekah, zikir, ziarah org sakit, yang penting hati sentiasa bergantung harap kepada Allah sahaja, jangan harap dari selain Allah, berdoa dengan sungguh-sungguh, dengan nada suara yang lembut dan merendah diri. Adukan problem anda kepada Allah swt, jika seseorang merahsiakan problemnya kepada manusia, kemudian mengadu hanya kepada Allah, maka Allah swt akan bantu dia, jika dia mengeluh kepada manusia maka Allah swt tidak akan bantu dalam masalah tersebut.

4. Berdoa disetiap selepas sembahyang 5 waktu, dengan berdoa untuk minta jodoh sahaja selama 20 minit-30 minit. Berdoa dengan mata separuh pejam. Insyaallah

5. Bangun tengah malam sembahyang tahajjud, kemudian solat taubat 2 rakaat, kemudian sembahyang hajat beberapa rakaat yang anda mampu. Lagi banyak lagi baik. Kemudian berdoa dengan kusyu’, insyaallah

6.Solat hajat 2 rakaat –> Doa, 2 rakaat lagi –>Doa, 2 rakaat lagi –>Doa, sehingga datang rasa benar-benar yakin yang Allah swt telah makbulkan. Kalau masih tak yakin usahakan pada malam berikutnya sehigga datang keyakinan. Bila anda telah benar-benar yakin bahawa doa anda telah makbul, insyaallah, tunggu aja lah orangnya.(Tawakkal)

7.Betulkan niat, nak kahwin kerana Allah, untuk selamatkan diri samada dari maksiat, ingin mendapat zuriat, untuk memudahkan menjalankan perintah Allah. Sabda nabi SAW, Allah menjamin untuk menolong 3 golongan:
1. Seseorang yang berjihad dijalannya
2. Seseorang yang berhutang dan berniat untuk membayarnya
3. Seseorang yang mahu kahwin untuk selamatkan agamanya

8. Berdoa dengan kusyuk diwaktu tertentu yang mustajab atau ditempat-tempat tertentu yang mustajab. Contoh: Diantara azan dan Iqamah, waktu hujan, waktu jam 3-5pagi (tahajjud), dalam masjid, berdoa dengan disertakan ismulazam, sesudah solat 5 waktu, sesudah solat asar sehingga terbenam matahari pada hari Jumaat. dalam keadaan suci, badan, pakaian dan tempat, mengadap kiblat, suara antara kedengaran dengan tidak, meminta seperti seorang fakir yang sangat mengharap dan dalam kelaparan.

9. Berdoa dengan dimulai pembuka doa dan selawat, kemudian penutup doa dan selawat.Contoh paling simple;
Pembuka:Alhamdulillah, Allahhhummasolli’ala saidina muhammad.
Kemudian bacalah apa2 saja doa samaada dalam bahasa Arab atau bahasa Melayu atau apa2 saja bahasa yang anda mahir…
Penutup:Alhamdulillah, Allahhhummasolli’ala saidina muhammad.

10. Berdoa dengan mengunakan doa-doa dari ajaran Rasulullah atau dari Al-Quran adalah doa terbaik dan paling berkat, jika tak pandai doa ajalah dalam bahasa sendiri, Allah swt maha memahami.

11. Selama beramal, jangan makan makanan, pakaian, tempat atau apa sahaja yang haram, subhat, kotor, makruh, makan makanan yang bersih, halal dan suci.

Insyaalllah jika anda amalkan tips-tips diatas dengan hati yang bersih dan ikhlas, apa sahaja permohonan, hajat, permintaan anda akan dimakbulkan oleh Allah, yakinlah. Kalau tak yakin cuba dulu, dan lihat sendiri. Jangan minta perkara-perkara yang karut-karut atau perkara mustahil, mintalah perkara-perkara yang baik sahaja. Allah swt maha kaya, dia mempunyai khazanah yang tidak ada kesudahan dan tak pernah berkurang, dia maha pangasih dan maha pemurah pula, dia suka memberi, dia suka manusia meminta dan berharap kepadanya, manusia sahaja yang kebanyakan tidak bijak kerana tidak mahu meminta dari Tuhan yang amat kaya dan pemurah. Meminta kepada sesama manusia adalah ibarat Seorang pengemis yang mengemis kepada pengemis yang lain.

Semoga Allah swt memberi sahabat2 semua mendapat jodoh yang terbaik.
Selamat berusaha!

let us all utilize the month of rejab...month of ALLAH....

2010-06-25T00:52:00.000-07:00

Sabda Nabi saw “Bulan Rejab Bulan Allah, Bulan Sya’aban bulanku & bulan Ramadhan bulan umatku“. Kemuliaan Rejab dengan malam ISRAK MIKRAJnya, Sya’aban dengan malam NISFUnya Ramadhan dengan LAILATUL-QADARnya. REJAB bulan menabur benih. SYA’ABAN bulan menyiram tanaman. RAMADHAN bulan menuai. REJAB menyucikan badannya. SYA’ABAN menyucikan hatinya. RAMADHAN menyucikan rohnya. REJAB bulan taubat. SYA’ABAN bulan muhibbah. RAMADHAN dilimpahi pahala amalan.

fadhilat Bulan Rejab

Bulan Rejab kembali lagi. Ia merupakan bulan yang sangat dimuliakan di dalam Islam. Banyak hadis Rasulullah S.A.W. yang telah diriwayatkan oleh para sahabat Baginda mengenai kelebihan bulan Rejab, bulan ketujuh di dalam kalendar Islam. Rejab bermaksud taazim (kebesaran, keagungan, kemuliaan) kerana Allah S.W.T. akan melimpahkan rahmat-Nya, kemurahan-Nya dan Ruangan Bimbingan Rohani kali ini menyorot fadhilat bulan Rejab dan beberapa hadis Rasulullah S.A.W. berkenaan dengannya.
Amalan terbaik di dalam bulan Rejab ini ialah berpuasa. Maksud hadis Rasulullah S.A.W. tentang kelebihan berpuasa di dalam bulan Rejab adalah seperti berikut:
Puasa 1 hari - Seperti berpuasa 40 tahun dan mendapat keredhaan Allah serta syurga tertinggi.
Puasa 2 hari - mendapat kemuliaan besar daripada Allah dan dilipatgandakan pahalanya.
Puasa 3 hari - dijauhkan dugaan dunia oleh Allah, dijadikan sebuah parit panjang yang menghalangnya ke neraka,
Puasa 4 hari - diselamatkan daripada siksaan akhirat kelak serta fitnah Dajjal.
Puasa 5 hari - aman dari azab kubur.
Puasa 6 hari - dibangkitkan dari kubur dengan muka bercahaya.
Puasa 7 hari - Allah mengunci 7 pintu neraka jahannam baginya.
Puasa 8 hari - Allah membuka 8 pintu syurga baginya.
Puasa 9 hari - keluar dari kuburnya lalu menyeru "Laailahaillallah" dan tidak ditolak dia dari memasuki syurga.
Puasa 10 hari - Allah memperkenankan semua permintaan dan hajatnya, dijadikan hamparan perhentian di titian Siratul Mustaqim setiap satu batu dan dijadikan 2 sayap untuk terbang seperti kilat di titian Siratul Mustaqim.
Puasa 13 hari - Saidina Ali berkata bahawa fadilatnya seperti puasa 3,000 tahun.
Puasa 14 hari - Saidina Ali berkata bahawa fadilatnya seperti puasa 10,000 tahun.
Puasa 15 hari - Allah mengampunkan semua dosanya yang lalu di samping menggantikan amalan kejahatan dengan amalan kebaikan. Saidina Ali berkata bahawa fadilatnya seperti puasa 100,000 tahun.
Puasa 16 hari - dapat melihat wajah Allah di dalam syurga dan orang pertama menziarahi Allah di dalam syurga.
Puasa 19 hari - Dibina sebuah mahligai di hadapan mahligai Nabi Allah Ibrahim dan Nabi Allah Adam.
Puasa 20 hari - Allah mengampunkan segala dosanya yang lalu, dan melakukan amalan baik dengan baki umurnya.
Sesiapa yang berpuasa 3 hari dalam bulan Rejab dan beribadat pada malamnya seperti dia berpuasa 3,000 tahun, diampunkan baginya 70 dosa-dosa besar setiap hari, ditunaikan 70 hajat ketika keluar nyawa dari jasadnya, 70 hajat ketika di dalam kuburnya, 70 hajat ketika terbang suhuf (ketika Al-Quran dinaikkan ke langit), 70 hajat ketika ditimbang amalannya di Mizan, dan 70 hajat ketika melalui titian Siratul Mustaqim.
Berpuasa pada 27 Rejab (Hari Israk dan Mikraj) seperti berpuasa 60 bulan pahalanya, jika disertai dengan sedekah seumpama puasa 1,000 tahun.
Dapat meminum air sungai yang dinamakan Rejab yang mana airnya lebih putih dari susu, lebih manis daripada manisan, lebih dingin dari salji.
Setiap umat Islam yang berpuasa di bulan Rejab seperti mengerjakan ibadat seumur hidupnya. Tambahan bersedekah seperti beribadat seribu kali haji dan umrah. Dibina untuknya seribu mahligai dengan seribu bilik dan seribu bidadari, lebih cantik daripada matahari seribu kali.
Sedekah di bulan Rejab seumpama sedekah seribu dinar, dituliskan kepada tiap-tiap helai bulu romanya seribu kebajikan, diangkat seribu darjat dan dihapuskan seribu kejahatan serta dijauhkan daripada api neraka.

sukran,

Salmah

2010-04-20T08:58:00.000-07:00

can you spot the difference??

i just found this on the net...they do really look the same... aren't they??? except for the hairy face the kangaroo has...they do look similar...

law kaifa.......

2010-04-18T21:28:00.000-07:00

i love this song...tamer hosni and syereen's voices are of the magnificence
check out the lyrics...u can sing along too...plus there's translation...enjoy!

LYRICS

law khayfa, adommek tela2y el aman
law tayha, fe alby tela2y el 7anan

ageelek law enty fe ab3ad makan
law khayfa, adommek tela2y el aman

7abeetak, w fe bo3dak alby ma3ak
7abeetak mosh momken ansa hawak

ageelek law enty fe ab3ad makan
law khayfa, adommek tela2y el aman

ana 7ases ka2enny 2abeltek zaman
3ayez a2oullek ba7ebek kaman

ouleely hageelak anawar samaak
7ekayetna 7ekaya katabha malaak

ana ganbak, w 7ayatee makan matkoon
w malaktak khaleetny malakt el koon

TRANSLATION

if you were scared, I'll hold you so you'll find safety
if you were lost, you'll find the kindness in my heart

I'll come to you, even if you were at the furthest place
if you were scared, I'll hold you so you'll find safety

I loved you, and in your absence, my heart is with you
I loved you, it's impossible to forget your love

I'll come to you, even if you were at the furthest place
if you were scared, I'll hold you so you'll find safety

I feel like I've met you in the past
I also wanna tell you "I love you"

tell me I'll come and lighten up your sky
our story has been written by an angel

I'm next to you, and my life is at wherever you'll be
and when I had you, you made me have the universe

i got my misty gray eyes back :P

2010-04-08T19:29:00.000-07:00

here is the funny story..
it was yesterday...
lailah suddenly bombarded me with the idea of watching "Clash of the Titans"...
and i agreed to it...without any further due...
we finally arrived at Jusco Bukit raje...
as we were entering the main entrance...it dashed to me..."im not wearing my contact lenses!!!"
but just so not to disappoint lailah... we went for 'optical shop hunt..'
n there it was...England Optical..
i asked for the normal contact lenses, the one without any colour...but unfortunately..it costs more than
the Freshlook Misty gray contact lenses...
so, i just opted for the one im wearing now...:p
basically i paid RM65 for my movie ticket!
has anybody spent that much amount just to watch A movie..i bet theres NON...

piling torments

2010-03-25T22:11:00.000-07:00

"assignments and torments are the new similes for

English"(salmah,2010)

a week at home

2009-11-21T23:12:00.000-08:00

It’s been a week at home…and im loving every bit of it, although boredom is on its way(toot,toot!!). Im happily manifesting every second I have with my sis…telling her series of my mishaps and emotional cessations back there in shah alam…really glad to have her around for someone I can fall my back on. Not to say, I do not cherish my days with my bros,umi and waled…but zahrah is the most comfortable person to tell everything…when I say everything…It really is everything…no covering up details. I really find solace in my sis’s ability to listen intently at my rants and protest…she proved to be the reliable pillar for me to lean on.

In lieu of the entire story telling, there’s also a shopping spree and a little make over going on for me and my sis…I got myself a beautiful hair cut and treatment, and some new hijabs to go with my new blouse and skirts! :p well, it’s about time to update my wardrobe anyway. ;p he..he!!

p/s im listening to mariam fares…mosh ananeya…

its the hormon that talks....

2009-11-21T23:02:00.000-08:00

It has been sometimes, I left the page unwritten with words of my overflowing emotions and series of excruciating ordeal. What can I say…it seems as if happiness is now something too good to be true. Whenever contentment is approaching, there at the end of the road, is the intangible evil feeling, (which existence is still an enigma) crashing the whole wonders of bliss. Oh, how I wish I am the care-free Salmah I used to be back in school and a little while in my initial year in college. But, as they say life gets harder when you get older, it is almost impossible to neglect anything that is happening around me…even the trivial matter boggles me to hell. Adding up to the pile of tormenting thoughts, of friendship, studies, and my own feeling of uncertainty, is the subject of affection.

Emotion, often when I talk about it, always draws me to conclusion I never really comprehend myself. It left me hanging in the pit of the darkest sorrow. I don’t know how to precisely describe my situation/status right now. It’s kinda complicated in its nature itself. I don’t know, the moment I think of it, it got all tangled up in me. Best not to think of it…but the truth is it keeps coming and I hate it; I hate to care about someone, I hate to have feeling about someone, I hate to think about him…I hate to miss him!! Really, I hate it so much!!! Cuz it never leaves me with even a bit of happiness but loneliness and the thought of ‘he never even thinks about me’. I wish it goes away…but I’m too weak to cease it…GOD…make me a strong person, it is one of your tests I need to go through…and I need the courage to do so….ameen~

all i want is you...

2009-06-24T01:24:00.000-07:00

love this song..simple yet captivating..

If I was a flower growing wild and free
All I'd want is you to be my sweet honey bee.
And if I was a tree growing tall and greeen
All I'd want is you to shade me and be my leaves

If I was a flower growing wild and free
All I'd want is you to be my sweet honey bee.
And if I was a tree growing tall and greeen
All I'd want is you to shade me and be my leaves

All I want is you, will you be my bride
Take me by the hand and stand by my side
All I want is you, will you stay with me?
Hold me in your arms and sway me like the sea.

If you were a river in the mountains tall,
The rumble of your water would be my call.
If you were the winter, I know I'd be the snow
Just as long as you were with me, when the cold winds blow.

All I want is you, will you be my bride
Take me by the hand and stand by my side
All I want is you, will you stay with me?
Hold me in your arms and sway me like the sea.

If you were a wink, I'd be a nod
If you were a seed, well I'd be a pod.
If you were the floor, I'd wanna be the rug
And if you were a kiss, I know I'd be a hug

All I want is you, will you be my bride
Take me by the hand and stand by my side
All I want is you, will you stay with me?
Hold me in your arms and sway me like the sea.

If you were the wood, I'd be the fire.
If you were the love, I'd be the desire.
If you were a castle, I'd be your moat,
And if you were an ocean, I'd learn to float.

All I want is you, will you be my bride
Take me by the hand and stand by my side
All I want is you, will you stay with me?
Hold me in your arms and sway me like the sea.

of boredom and agony

2009-05-19T07:10:00.000-07:00

hmmmm....I'm really am so tremendously bored staying at home...practically no entertainment for me... what’s there left is just a without-astro 39 inch TV! I'm working, yes...but a part time tutor and 3 times a week wouldn't wash away the growing boredom inside me...its killing u see when ur closed friend is studying and ur at home!...(faten~ when r u coming back, really missing u here babe). its all the same every semester when all of the bestest films are coming out and i am here in kelantan, a place where cinema is such an alien creation. I'll be missing all 7 films I've been so much fervent to watch...but alas here it goes again~ the same 3 jaded months of holiday...plus im so torn out with a so called predicament that had just bombarded to me yesterday...really clueless of how to settle this intangible problem between two person...im pathetic when it comes to handling problematic stuff...especially when it is cause by me..by this stupid me...i really am sorry if the only thing i knew to attain forgiveness is only by uttering out the word 'sorry'...for i do not know of any other possible ways...and im sorry that i do something really stupid that triggers your resentment and disappointment...its really not what i intended though...anyway things had happen and let time decide..cuz i can’t do nothing about it no more...wish I’d never done it...but....shits happen....n here it is straight at my face!

p/s:here is a list of seven films I'll be missing that I've made out of boredom for sure...

17 Again
Angels and Demons
Push
Star Trek
Terminator Salvation
Transformers 2 : Revenge of the Fallen
Harry Potter and the Half Blood Prince( i might catch up with this one i guess..hihihi)

the key to my heart

2009-05-15T06:51:00.000-07:00

i was browsing the net last night, and accidentally came across this photo. really think it has so much of sentimental value for its owner...the necklace is simple yet captivating!. i really love the way the key and heart-shape padlock are placed, they just complement each other so much that as if one cant stand on its own without the other half.the faded bronze coloured metal simply add to the classiness of its look(ageless!) ..isn't it lovely to have a kind of necklace, especially if its a present from a special someone..(ooh...how sweet~) :p

im sorry... n i wish im a better person

2009-03-18T10:27:00.000-07:00

It is so hard for me to understand

Something simple that every adult can figure

I hate not to know how to react, how to think, how to feel maturely

People say I’m like a kid that is still needed to be thought of everything

They response to me as if im 11-year-old girl

I’m not!! I’m just the same as u..

Can u see that?

Alas....I can’t put all the blame on them

Sometimes simple things people say

Might bug my feelings so badly

(like a child who thinks her mother hates her because the pinch she gives her)

And sometime I can’t even care less about serious matter

That needs my total n utmost concern...

I wish I can figure stuff easily and act with matured soul

without hurting others and my very own...

Im hurting inside but i couldn’t say it out loud

I will cry when im the only one left alone

with no shoulders to cry on

Im sorry if my being hurts YOU

Im sorry for the childish acts i portray

Im sorry if my words wound you

im sorry if i get everything wrong

im sorry dear friends

i just cant help it

i wish to change...very!!

but...time will show my way...

perhaps i'm still learning...and these are some inaccuracies that

will soon carve a better me

of boredom and solemn

2009-03-08T21:10:00.000-07:00

Boredom is like a pitiless zooming in on the epidermis of time. Every instant is dilated and magnified like the pores of the face.

when boredom strikes

everything is countable...

theres 52 chairs in the computer lab

but only two are occupied

theres 162 squares up at the ceiling

50 computers

30 windows

51 tables

288 rectangular designs on the door

5 visible plugs on the wall

2 notice boards

with 8 posters plus 3 notes

2 exit doors

2 printers

and 1 girl counting...

(im so super duper bored!!)

loving

2009-02-26T19:23:00.000-08:00

truly loving another means
letting go of all expectations.
it means full acceptance, even
celebration of another personhood

Karen Casey

bukit cahaya

2009-02-21T01:30:00.000-08:00

i just went to bukit cahaya or usually known as bukit cerakah...(hmmm...wondering whats da meaning of cerakah? :p)...but this time, we did not went for cycling...we're just strolling around,enjoying the scenic view of cerakah and finally hoping to experience snow....hehehe...but we're just so 'LUCKY' this time...the 4 seasons house was closed...sedeyh sgt tau..what to do...but apart from sedeyh...it was fun though...owh ya...i got to climbed this one huge tree and carved my name on it...huhuhu...everybody else tried to climb...but they just did't manage :p... cuz its a bit too high...or... the fact that I'm small... maybe its easier to climb if ur small!...kiihkihkih...(probably)

waiting for the bus(apasal la lambat sgt)

hehehehe

why?

2009-02-19T19:55:00.000-08:00

hmmmmmmmm...my mood shows... my entries are all dull,cloudy, full of sorrow and emptiness...im waiting for the sun to rise and fill me with stars, flowers and colours...but, to think again, perhaps happiness does not trigger the poetry side of me....hahahahaa...

alone

2009-02-19T19:14:00.000-08:00

Lonely is just one word chosen to represent so much
To tell of feelings inside that the senses cannot touch

Lonely can be in the teardrops on a bereaved person’s cheek
Lonely can be in the silence of sorrows too deep to speak

Lonely can haunt a deserted room that Laughter once made proud
Lonely surrounds you when you’re alone or finds you in a crowd

Lonely is heard in echoed footsteps of a departing friend
Lonely penetrates the solitude of nights that will not end

Lonely will not listen to the pleadings of a broken heart
Lonely stays and torments until new Love shatters it apart

Loneliness

2009-02-14T21:43:00.000-08:00

I say loneliness kills and you'd laughed, assuming to the humorous possibility that it is merely a quotation by pathetic lovers.

You continue laughing because You don't understand!

If you could see loneliness, my friend, you would cry and cry and cry till it stops seeing you. If you could hear loneliness, you'd close your ear and beg it to stop for it is like a sad, dragging music that cynically laugh to humiliate your suffering. The moment it starts to hunt, you'd want to run away, desperately and you'd use anything to escape to the extent when sleep and death becomes nothing much of a difference. It kills you deep. LONELINESS KILLS!

a contribution from a fren

2009-02-10T04:10:00.000-08:00

Con-fuse-sing-me

It’s hard to tell story
When your mind is full of misery
That fills with tears and grieves
It’s like life of intangible rope
That sometimes the knot is twisted with no hope
Should I say it’s ok to feel the agony
That’s flaming with anger and no blissful ecstasy
Sometimes I kept thinking of happiness that only comes at day light
And will soon fade with the darkening night
Why it’s hard to make choice of two possible uncertainties
When there’s only confusing eternity
I kept thinking of ease
That will never come to me with gentle breeze
Damn! I wish life is lot easier
If there someone to share every sorrow and grieve
But, alas...there’s non with such shear mercy
Its seems so unclear
Its seems so hard
Its seems so complicated
And I’m confused...
Sigh~~
Salome

2009-02-03T20:17:00.001-08:00

Do you know…

Do you know how it feels to think about someone

And knowing that he’s not thinking of you

Do you know how it feels to wake up every morning with him in your mind

And knowing he never did the same

Do you know how it feels in pain of missing him

And knowing he’s heart is breathing free from longing you

Do you know how it feels of hoping to hear his voice on the phone

And knowing he’s enjoying the sounds of his favourite song

Do you know how it feels hoping him to knock the front door

And knowing he’s seeing someone else

Do you know how it feels to restrain yourself from calling him

And knowing your heart is screaming for him

Do you know how it feels to think of him every night b4 sleep

And knowing he’s sleeping soundly, drowning in dreams

Do you know how it feels hoping to know you’re the one for him

And knowing he’s in uncertainty

Do you know how it feels hoping him to say I love you

And knowing he’s never been so serious

Do you know how it feels to love him

And knowing he’s not

salome

thinking....confused

2009-01-29T21:55:00.000-08:00

i'll be going back to sa today...still thinking of waiting at the bus station(at 3 or 4 AM)..or...just redah jer balik umah(if i have the courage)....but what IF something happen...ok....confused.....how.....????
can somebody help me with this....sigh~~~~~~

bla..bla..

2009-01-29T02:58:00.000-08:00

im back home.... thought of googling articles for my assignment...however im GLADD to say that i havent found any...just my luck! :(...couldnt get anything to suit the course discription...i relented!!...no more googling!!...kene carik kat library gak,,,arghhh!!..........ma........las...........nyer........ why MY life have to be so hard,so intricate,so complicated,...........wa...!! tomorrow...i have to go through the most unwanted-tears-dropping moment....why everything have to come to an end?...i want stay home longer...tak puas lagi!!..ummi....!!!!...tanak balik lg!!.... :'( wait!!..."sudah jatuh ditimpa tangge"...ouch!!...at 3 or 4 am...i'll be arriving at shah alam...noboby is waiting for me...i have to walk alone through the creepy, full of indon,myanmar,nepal,u-name-it people strolling around seksyen 17 area...(they are all seems like walking zombies to me!!)...so...macam mane tu...????..*blank* i dont noe what to do...should i wait at the bus station until sun rise..or...just walk my way home...hmmmmmm...what if 'something' happen to me on my way...(nanguzubillah) but...what if?? ok....*blank* *stop thinking salmah!* i have to be positive do i?...just put the brave face on...that will do it!! hmmmmmm *tak sure* :/
Doa jer la....

he loves me...he loves me not...

2008-12-11T05:08:00.001-08:00

I’ve been wondering and reflecting myself over these holidays…and I realize that I’ve done something that I suppose to avoid all this while. Something that might jeopardize my status as a girl, as a MUSLIM! This is about human being that in nature needs companion of the opposite attraction (boy and girl attraction). It’s a fitrah given to all creature; they are made in couple. A man needs a woman and vice versa. However, there are those who go against the nature like the gays and lesbians…but I’m not going to talk about it now…there is something more prominent to discuss. I realize that there is no need to have any special one or in other simple word a boyfriend/girlfriend. Although how much you have tried to make it as clean as possible, you’ll fail at the end...trust me… you are hoping that the one who you are having feeling with now, will be your husband or wife… (You might have to think twice or maybe more)… with such perception, it will somewhat make you unconsciously ignore the dos and don’ts of boy-girl relation. Although you set some restrictions over the relationship like no holding hands, no hugging, no ect, ect, ect…but it’s hard to hold the feeling of having it. There will be somehow little touches here and there (although it’s accidently or intentionally)… As a normal human being you are lying if you say that you do not like it…it’s nature that we human love to be touched and touch (especially from the opposite sex). Thus…the only way to restrain it is to avoid having any relationship before you’re married…or do not have any feeling towards others…because it’s dangerous. You can make friends or knowing anyone (for me I must get to know someone before marrying him…need to consider the five aspects of choosing a good spouse though) but you must not go over the boundaries…(for girls: if the man is sincere, he will respect and would not touch you or else , he just want to have fun)…The only safe, beautiful and blissful relationship is husband and wife relationship (feel free to do anything ;P)…although some might say that “ala…kuno la die ni” or “asik pikir kawin jer”...well, I don’t care!!… Its true right that, what’s the use of having feeling with a boy you’re not sure with…instead of loving your own husband!? sometime I thought that I don’t want to love any other guy except for my husband and he will be the one who has my first love(it’s hard, but it’s possible)…huhu…sounds so beautiful..;p but I really hope I can realize it… Ameen... I will feel bad if my husband is the 2nd, 3nd or 4th person that I love... (it’s not fair for him though)…I believe that if you dreamt of a husband as good as Saidina Ali…u need to become more or less like Saidatina Fatimah…its even unequivocally stated in Quran that “the thief(man) and the thief(woman)”. It means a bad man is for the bad woman (and a pious man is for a pious woman)… thus, take your time and ponder about it…which category are you in now (the bad or the pious/good)…I’m not perfect myself but I realized what I did wrong and hopefully I can change for the better…hence this will be a reminder for me and for those out there as well, let we all experience the beauty of Islam…~ AMEEN…

P/S: feel free to leave any comment, or share insights and ideas (sharing is caring (^_^))tata…

my second entry

2008-09-24T20:17:00.000-07:00

hello again dear journal!!

hehehe...

when was the time i last see u? that might be last week perhaps,

couldn't quite remember...:p

hmmmmm...OK now..today!

i got my Arabic reading test and its just like eating nuts!!!

not that I'm bragging or boasting myself...but its for real!

i didn't even land my eyes on Arabic books last nite...but luck just "sway gracefully" to me today.:p..im not experience this often...so,that's why its something i should cherish for:p

today i have to attend something i never really in fond of(something i hate da most!!)..

KESATRIA speech!! i just couldnt stand myself sitting there for two hours listening to crabSSS!!! i will sure start to agitate after even 2 minutes!!..i just couldn't get it...how on earth people can listen to it in full concentration!! im not saying they r freak, but hey!! common listening to kesatria.???

oh ya!! an extremely great news here..this week i'll be returning to my negeri tanah tumpah on Saturday!! for RAYA!!!..huuuu...i just couldnt wait!! all my kazen will be there, got to meet my family..that i miss so much!! RAYA is such a great day to me...da day when distance is no longer becoming the boundary for us...cuz every one is there to eat, dance and CELEBRATE!!..dats all..see u after raya!!

ciau, adious, maassalamah!!

SELAMAT HARI RAYA

MAAF ZAHIR BATIN

the very day i create this blog.

2008-09-22T00:08:00.000-07:00

never thought i will be creating a blog of my own, for writing is not my favor.Well, i have problem in writing my thoughts into words, i prefer drawing cuz they say "picture symbolizes thousand words." so why waste ur time writing million words when u just need a paper of a picture. hahahahaha! somehow, i just give a shot to write something here.....well its not wrong to try something new, something i never done before. a change of paradigm might never be a problem right?...hmmmmm...what more to write?? oh ya..im now sitting in a library, got nuthing else to occupied me. (my class canceled,my best friend is not here) so, this is when, the thought of blogging bombard to me....hmmmmm...i think thats all for now...( i may consider this a journal of mine) yay!!!! i have a journal now!! yippi!!